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It's been forever sice I have been able to get on here and write anything! Motherhood is keeping me superbusy. My baby girl India is 1 now and talking and running and keeping me quite entertained.

We are done with school for the summer. Whew!!

My oldest (Celena) is on a youth mission trip with our church (GCF) in New Orleans, helping to clean up from the hurricane. Apparently they can't stay after 4pm because even the cops won't go to that side of town after then. Noah, my second child, is getting ready for his own childrens trip in Aug. and my Isaiah is as charming and sweet as ever!

We are trying to buy a house, we have been outbid once already and that offer fell threw so we are putting in another offer today. I am so tired of living in apartments!

My husband bought a motorcycle and we have been taking rides togther on it. I got hit by a large bug on sunday as we were riding to have lunch. That was fun;) Anyway I LOVE the bike! I was a little freaked out at first at being so "naked" on it but I am over it now.

My nephew brandon had an accident and sliced his leg open playing on a slip and slide. There was a lightening rod poking out of the ground and he landed on it just right. Had to have 24 staples to close it up.

I think that is all the updating I can manage right now:)

Twilight

"I'd never given much thought to how I would die."

So begins one of the most resonant love stories to touch teen culture in quite some time. Love, found in a world filled with terrifying monsters in the moonlight. Love, found at a strange high school in a tiny, rainy town that Bella Swan did not want to live in. Love, found by a cold-blooded vampire who didn't think he would ever feel warmth again. Love, found by both of them to be intoxicating to the point of creating near giddy insanity.

Bella moves to Forks, Wash., to live with her dad after her divorced mother remarries. She thinks of it as an exile. Certainly she doesn't think anything good will come of it. She's from Phoenix, and she hate the cold and rain. She's a high school junior, so she doesn't relish the idea of starting over at a new school. She's uncertain about her relationship with her dad.

But she fits in better than she anticipates. Or at least she thinks she does until she meets Edward Cullen. Butterflies start circling in her stomach the moment she sees him, but all he does is glare at her. It might take a while to smooth out the bumps, but Bella's determined to make it work with her white-faced dreamboat.

So determined, it turns out, that even when she learns that he's a bloodsucking vampire, she's unwavering in her newfound infatuation. "You don't scare me," she tells him repeatedly, almost as if she's trying to convince herself along with him.

Her resolve is continually tested as she learns that it's all he can do to resist the desire to kill her, as she meets his intimidating family of vampires, and as she becomes the target of a nomadic "tracker" vamp, who's decided she's the endgame of an eternal lifetime. But love is love, she figures, no matter the risk. And therein lies the heart and soul of Twilight—exhibited in both grand and shocking ways.

positive elements

Family is a big part of what nurtures Twilight's love. Edward's coven—family—of vampires is a loving one. Each member is committed to protecting the others, even Bella when she becomes part of them through her relationship with Edward.

The Swans, while more fragmented, still show a great deal of cohesion demonstrated through selflessness. Dad opens his arms and home to Bella after years of separation. Uncomfortable at first, Bella tries to give him a fair shake when she arrives. And she does everything in her power to make sure that when her life is threatened, Dad doesn't become collateral damage.

Superlatively, Bella willingly offers herself as a sacrifice meant to save her mom's life. She narrates, "Dying in the place of someone I loved seemed like a good way to go."

Spiritual content

Accepting, for a moment, the idea that vampires can exist in a fantasy world and that they are capable of making "moral" choices within the framework of their predetermined natures, it would be fair to say that the Cullen clan's choice to avoid killing humans is ... positive. Edward explains to Bella that they are "vegetarians," meaning that they have learned to survive on the blood of animals. Beyond being grateful that she's not going to be devoured mere moments after falling in love for the first time in her life, Bella interprets this as them being "good" vampires who have struggled, some for centuries, to renounce their evil inclinations.

So within the context of a monster mash such as this, we can see a reflection of the Christian calling to put away the old man of sin and embrace the new one—a path that while straight and narrow, is certainly more difficult to walk.

Edward and Bella don't talk about it much, but it is intimated that despite their ability to choose good over evil, Edward considers himself and all other vampires to be eternally damned, and he resists mightily the idea of allowing Bella to descend into the abyss that he finds himself submerged in. She doesn't care a whit about that. She's eager to become a "cold one" if only it means she will be with her beau forever.

Edward can read minds. His sister, Alice, sees visions of the future.

sexual content

Clearly tempted to go farther, Edward wrenches himself away from Bella after they begin kissing. (Before he does so, they embrace, eagerly lock lips and slowly lower themselves onto her bed.) There's a pro-abstinence message in his decision to disengage, but it's muddied by a couple of facts: 1) He's avoiding sexual contact because he knows it will cause him to want to kill her, not because he believes the contact itself would be immoral in any way. 2) He says he's been in the habit of sneaking into her window at night and watching her sleep. And once he admits that to her—and she doesn't run screaming, calling him a creepy stalker—he proceeds to spend the night with her in her bed (clothed, but cuddling).

Dialogue dips into the sexual arena when Edward tells Bella what people at a restaurant are thinking about. He grins, looking around the room and saying, "Money, sex, money, sex, cat." Mom asks Bella if she's "being safe." There's a quick joke about a swim team's padded Speedos.

Girls at school wear tops that expose a bit of cleavage. And prom dresses—Bella's included—reveal even more.

Violent content

The first question a colleague asked me when I returned to the office after seeing Twilight was, "Were there any gory vampire bites shown in the movie?" It's a fair question, and it probably mirrors what a whole host of parents began wondering the moment after a whole host of Kaitlins and Ashleys started begging to go see it.

The answer is yes.

In flashback, we watch Carlisle "create" Edward by biting down into his neck. There's no blood visible in this "transformation," but there is in other vampire attacks. Bella's hand is slashed in a fight with the tracker vamp, and he ultimately bites her, too. This takes place in the midst of a frenetic battle that starts with just Bella and the tracker, and ends up a full-scale melee involving Edward, Jasper and Alice. The tracker's head is twisted nearly off (onscreen) before he's disassembled and burned in a fire (mostly offscreen or out of focus).

Bella is hurled across a room; she slams into a mirrored wall. The tracker breaks her leg by stomping on it. When Edward tears into the rival vampire, they all but destroy the building they're in, blasting through floors, walls, windows, etc.

When Bella does a bit of Web research on the "cold ones," we watch over her shoulder as she sees drawings and cinematic images of bloody killings. We see flashes from contemporary vampire assaults, too; these hint at the violence that transpires rather than fully expose it.

To save Bella's life, Edward sucks her blood from the puncture wound the tracker inflicted, drawing the venom back out of her. And it's not the only time she's in danger: When the Cullens first meet the tracker, they square off in threatening, animalistic crouches to defend her. When a careening van veers toward Bella, Edward stops it with his hand. And when a small group of ne'er-do-wells accosts Bella in an alleyway, she's crowded and threatened before Edward swoops to the rescue. (To his credit, he resists the urge to kill the men.)

In a sequence used to illustrate a lie told about how Bella got hurt, we see her tumble down stairs and smash through a large window.

Crude or profane language

One exclamatory use of "h---." "Oh my god" is interjected a handful of times. There's a line about a "butt-crack Santa."

Drug and alcohol content

Bella's dad downs beer on several occasions. In one scene we see him pile two six-packs onto a friend's lap. Edward refers to Bella as his "own personal brand of heroin."

Other negative elements

To protect his vampiric identity, Edward has cultivated the fine art of lying. Bored with safe driving rules, he speeds and executes fancy—difficult and dangerous for us mere mortals—quick-turn tricks.

In a ploy to try to protect him from the vampires, Bella reluctantly, yet intentionally, wounds her father with words her mother used when they divorced.

Conclusion

There are two kinds of people who will watch Twilight: Those who have read the books ... and those who haven't. The two groups will see a very different movie. The latter will casually make its way through a romance-obsessed vampire yarn involving a human high school girl and a 17-year-old vampire who's actually over 100. The former will observe the very same romance, but layer onto it the entire story arc that unfolds through the four Stephenie Meyer novels that have birthed this movie franchise.

That makes it difficult to write just a movie review about a movie that isn't just a movie, but rather part of tall tale that doesn't end at twilight, or even the dark of night. It goes beyond into the realm of the eternal—something not really hinted at onscreen ... yet.

I'll give you an example of how Twilight neophytes and Twi-hards, as they're starting to be called online, will react differently as the film unspools: When Jacob shows up for the first time, he's ostensibly a minor character who, along with his wheelchair-bound dad, is delivering an old truck that Bella's father bought for her. OK, fine, right? No big deal. But when he first peeks his head onto the screen, a portion of the audience—primarily female, for the record—is likely to erupt with squeals of delight. They certainly did at the advance screening I attended. Why? Because Jacob eventually becomes A) Bella's best non-Edward friend, B) a shapeshifting wolf and C) a hunk.

Fans of the books clearly weren't there to just see a movie. They were there to experience the thrill of "meeting" their favorite characters in all their huge, big-screen glory. This says a lot about how much impact Meyer's story is having. Readers—and now moviegoers—are soaking in everything she's written, taking it to heart and wearing it, quite literally, on their sleeves.

One Twilight T-shirt being sold (and which I saw at the movie) proclaims, "Forbidden Fruit Tastes the Best." And that's certainly one of the film's underlying themes. This isn't about me beating up Twilight for being about vampires, though. There are positives in it that bear repeating: The Cullens refuse to be party to murder even when it's their "nature" to kill and feed off humans. Edward consistently controls his own blood lust around his classmates and especially around Bella. He cares for her. He protects her. Bella offers up her life for her mom.

But there's enough negative undercurrent even in this first outing (the books get darker as they progress, so presumably the movies will follow) to justify some pretty serious conversations afterwards for those families that decide to defer their better judgment—which would normally push vampire flicks out of bounds—and go ahead and go with the flow and see the show. The positivity of Edward and Bella's abstinence needs to be tempered with a discussion about what's so very wrong with them "sleeping" together and him sneaking into her room. His resistance to turning her into a vamp must be contrasted with her desperate desire to become one. Her obvious love for her father needs to be stacked up next to her willingness to deceive him both when his life depends on it and when it just suits her romantic desires.

Bella finds herself inexorably drawn to the "bad boy," and she does little to resist. She calls herself a "stupid lamb" (and there's already a T-shirt out there that splashes the phrase across its front), refusing to wise up for fear that clarity might mean her heart will be broken. Indeed, she waves away Edward's objections as if they were just annoying mosquitoes buzzing around her head.

We know that he doesn't want to hurt her. But she doesn't.

There's an important life lesson lurking in Bella's obstinance. But don't look for Twilight to unpack it for you. It's too dizzy from breathing in the heady fragrance of heedless and headstrong young love.